I am having anxiety. My mom called me to say they were on their way to Nicaragua for a family reunion, and I completely lost it. Best thing about it was, I was at the grocery store, so people literally thought I was crazy. Great. There is SO much going on. Our line launches in SIX days. It’s pre-sell 750 pieces or BUST. Seriously. After returning from Haiti, I had a fire in me to do this. I kept telling our team, “Starting a fair-trade factory in a tiny village of a third world country seemed like an impossible task, but we did it and if we can do that, then we can pre-sell 750 pieces in the month of September. Right?! I have to keep reminding myself, that the answer is YES… yes we can! (Obama told me so :))
Also many of you have asked me about my trip and I am still having difficulty answering you. So sorry about that. I’m still trying to process everything. My last trip to Haiti, was my first, so I spent a lot of time getting to know the women behind aDARable and discovering the village of Ti-Bouk.
This go-round was different in ways I can’t describe. Before I go into more detail, let me allow myself to explain a few things first. Those of you who know me really well, know that I very much march to the beat of my own drum. I believe in fairytales, happy endings. I believe in following your gut, your intuition. I believe your gut, your intuition is really your heart screaming at you, and I believe in following your true heart’s desires. I believe if you follow your true heart’s desires all the powers in the universe will conspire together to help you achieve whatever you set your heart to. I am very much a free spirit, a lover of people and life. I love learning about other cultures and other religions. I believe we should all try to learn something new every day. I believe we all live just once, but I also believe if we live our life following our hearts, living once is more than enough. And last, I believe in Christ.
Rarely will you find me talking about religion, politics, and other touchy subjects with others. I love hearing others discuss their point of views, but then I go and do my own research to hopefully understand where and why I stand where I stand. I guess I am like this because although I am a believer in Christ, I am mindful and appreciative of other religions and ways of thinking. Anyway, all this to say on this trip to Haiti, I felt Jesus. I have had one other experience like the one I had in Haiti one other time in life, and it took me a good while to talk about it.
It was our last day with the women and they started playing some Compa music. Compa is the music of Haiti. We then attempted to teach them the Cupid Shuffle. We danced, laughed and hugged. The women then made a circle around us and began singing church songs, they prayed the Lord’s Prayer in Creole, and then each woman began praying for us out loud. At that point I just closed my eyes and listened carefully to the words that were coming out of their mouths, not understanding any of it, but enjoying the eloquence of how their prayers were resonating. It was at that point that it hit me like a lighting bolt, an overwhelming feeling. I knew it was Him talking to me. Telling me to continue on my pursuit of happiness in helping the poorest of the poor. Telling me He has been by our sides this entire time. Telling me not to quit, to free these women of their poverty stricken state, to give them meaning, and purpose in life. I felt Him. I really did.
I really am going somewhere with this and it leads me to my now. I came back a changed person once again. It seems like I come back changed every time I go to a place like Haiti. But this time I am more driven than I have ever been about this project….today was just a tiny step back for me. But you can feel how much our women need us, and lately I have only talked about our women in Haiti because of the excitement of aDARable, but our women in Costa Rica–I haven’t forgotten about you. I came back knowing that although many people thought (and many still do think) I am crazy for following my heart, my heart didn’t fail me. I came back knowing God has been listening to our prayers and He is behind this project in ways I’ll never understand. I came back smiling because of the feeling as though I have found my real purpose in life, and I came back more stubborn than ever, because this project cannot fail. Individual lives are depending on us and on me, that is a responsibility I will protect and try my hardest to accomplish. Now, I just need to remind myself of this constantly….especially on a day like today when my nerves are taking the best of me. We. Can. Sell. 750 pieces. In. September….YES we can!