“Some people feel the rain. Others just get wet.”

“Some people feel the rain. Others just get wet.” ― Bob Marley

Have you ever been in that funk and you can’t seem to get out of it?  It’s where one bad thing triggers another, and there is the massive domino effect from it.

I’m going through it.  Yea, I said it.  I’m in a place I’ve never been in terms of the “funk”, and I’m trying to deal with it.  I’m a pretty strong woman when it comes to stress and emotions.  I tend to bottle it all up.  It can come across as being insensitive but I would rather go into my ugly cry alone, than around others.  I listen a lot, contemplate a lot, pray a lot, but never really let out the emotions.  Yesterday was different for me.  I came to my roadblock and  I knew I had to let it all out.  There was one person I knew I could call and she would just listen to me.  She would let me rant, cry like a baby, hyperventilate, get everything and anything off of my chest and would not judge me one bit, and so I did.  I called her.  Once I was done, she bluntly said, WeAreDAR/aDARable doesn’t need this right now.  We need you to focus.

And so here I am.  This is the first time I am actually saying this, but I need this project, more than this project needs me.  The relationships we have built are some that will last a lifetime.  I can feel it in my bones.  To hear from our women in Costa Rica,  giving us thanks and telling us how they benefited from their micro-enterprises and for the first time in their lives they have the ability to pay it forward… gives me chills.  To know that we are SO close to achieving life changing opportunities for 10 women living on less than a $1 a day…is beyond me.  To think, that my daughters can either say, “My mommy once had a project where she was wanting to help make the world a better a place.” Or say, “My mommy has this really cool project where women in different countries are given jobs to better their lives…” This puts it all into perspective for me.  I need this project to show both Emery and Gigi that their mommy, being nobody special, with no money, and with faith alone, decided to dream big and make her journey count.  I need this project to remind myself that my “funk” is NOTHING compared to what our women deal with.  These people in Costa Rica, Nicaragua, and Haiti don’t worry about what they’re going to have for supper.  No.  They worry IF they are going to be able to have a supper.  Think about it.

So I pray. God, I need You more than words can say.  Right here in this moment.  You know our hearts, You know our needs. You know every everything.  So even if it’s just to speak Your name.  I’m gonna pray.

m.

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Borrowed Time

“Living a life fully engaged and full of whimsy and the kind of things that love does is something most people plan to do, but along the way they just kind of forget. Their dreams become one of those “we’ll go there next time” deferrals. The sad thing is, for many there is no “next time” because passing on the chance to cross over is an overall attitude toward life rather than a single decision.”
― Bob Goff, Love Does: Discover a Secretly Incredible Life in an Ordinary World

In just the past week, I learned of two beautiful, young, vibrant, people who left us way too soon. In everything I did, from mowing the lawn, to grocery shopping, to driving… I kept asking myself the “whys”, and “what now?” for the families and loved ones affected by their loss. Then I turned my energy and attention to what I want to accomplish now, because as I was reminded, our time here, on this beautiful earth, is borrowed.

We all know I am a DREAMER, and that I am CRAZY, crazy enough to believe I can change the lives of women of countries in extreme need. I’m also a bit of a mess and all over the place, but truthfully I am just someone who is looking for deep peace and true beauty.

My 5 year old asked me how she could change the world..I’m totally not making this up. She is asking some intense questions lately. I thought about the question and I simply told her to make someone smile everyday. Her wittiness quickly responded, “but that’s easy Mami, because you smile when you see me everyday.” She is already changing lives and she doesn’t even know it.

So although I find myself wanting “deep peace and true beauty” what does that really look like for me and how do I accomplish it? It finally dawned on me that I am working towards that. All this stress, the tears, the long nights without sleeping, and the moments of wanting to give up, are all worth it. I find peace in knowing that I am giving my daughter an example and teaching her about our global community. I find beauty in knowing I am challenging myself every day trying to figure out how to come up with the money to make this mission work. No it’s not easy…hell, it’s the most challenging thing I’ve ever done, but the true beauty, the true beauty is at the end of this process we are changing lives. We are providing hope and a means of sustaining life.

I challenge you to go after your true heart’s desire. It’s OK if we get turned down, or if we fail. As Bob Goff states in his book, Love Does, “Failure is just part of the process, and it’s not just okay; it’s better than okay. God doesn’t want failure to shut us down. God didn’t make it a three-strikes-and-you’re-out sort of thing. It’s more about how God helps us dust ourselves off so we can swing for the fences again. And all of this without keeping a meticulous record of our screw-ups.”

Go for it. Remember, we are on borrowed time.

m.

Meet Maarika!

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This is LONG over-do and I apologize. About three months ago, I blogged about our little girls leaving to vacation with my parents in Honduras for 10 weeks, well they finally returned this weekend, and I’ve been smitten since. Before they returned I wanted to get organized with everything I have going on, and so the blog took a bit of an absence. So so much has been going on and I promise to update more frequently but first I wanted to tell all of you about Maarika. God continues to put people in our path, showing us that this project is SUPPOSE to be happening and just like Ashlyn, Jamie, Annette, Taylor, Kayla, and all the others who have given so much to us, so has Maarika.

I first met Maarika on the day we had our very first video shoot for aDARable. She volunteered her Saturday morning to help us. As we began talking she told me she had three kids and decided to follow her dream of of becoming a fashion designer. I knew this girl and I would hit it off instantly…I LOVE DREAM FOLLOWERS! Long story short, she has just given so much to us and has decided to help us in her spare time. I won’t tell you too much about her because I will let her do that, but Maarika is truly God sent. I can’t wait to get to know her better and continue this journey with someone as talented and lovely as her.

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Beautiful and talented Maarika.

Hi, I’m Maarika. I was honored to meet Martha, Annette and Taylor and begin this amazing journey with WEareDAR and aDARable when I signed up to take the Designing for a Cause class at O’More College of Design where I’m a Fashion Design major. Up until that point I had been wrestling with the ultimate question of “what do I do with this degree”? As it happens this is a career change for me, I’m a mother of three and a super busy “Dreamer”. Having a purposeful design endeavor come my way truly cemented my belief that I am meant to use my talents to help others who may not be fortunate enough to have the choice to do what they love. It’s a hard thing to follow your dream and it causes all sorts of chaos and eyebrow raising, but in the end, if we were lucky enough to be born into a life where we can use our gifts to give back, then why not? Illustrating beautiful clothing is my love- I was lucky enough to illustrate aDARables first line of children’s clothes that our product development team collaborated on. Now the image of the Urban Pioneer will forever capture those magical months where I helped research, choose color palettes, create inspiration and theme boards, design the outfits, pick fabric, make patterns, sew, and finally style the children’s garments before they went down the runway. But it never seemed like a class and I looked forward to every Thursday.

I’ve also found that I love to tell people about WeAreDAR! My past teaching experiences come back to me now and I want to get out there and educate everyone about this incredible nonprofit! I love Instagram, Facebook, Pinterest and it’s fun to tweet about something that will in the end be of benefit to others. I felt like several kindred spirits had entered my life when Martha asked me to join WeAreDAR as their Marketing CoordinaDAR; now I can truly spread the word and watch where this beautiful journey takes us.

-Maarika